7:01 PM

Roots and Shoots 2: Copasetic

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Copasetic, also spelled copacetic, copesetic or - less commonly - kopasetic, means very satisfactory or acceptable.


Copasetic is an unusual English language word in that it is one of the few words of seemingly unknown origin that is not considered slang in contemporary usage. It is used almost exclusively in North America, and is said to have been first widely publicized in communications between the astronauts and Mission Control of the Apollo Program in the 1960s

In order for there to be a gift, there must be an expulsion and a reception. There is balance there. Therefore, may God find us lost and undefined to the world but beholden unto Him. There is a balance there, I think.

5:26 PM

The View from Here

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(I'm listening to D'Angelo's "Africa" from Voodoo as I type this)
Where I am today is quite a walk from where I was yesterday so to speak. It's a bit more than a stone's throw but I can still recall then. My feelings and thoughts about God, the nature of purpose, identity, relationships, and things have changed. I' like to think I've grown. I'd say and believe so. I recently talked with a best friend of my adoré (not sure if that's a real word but I think you get what I'm identifying). We talked about our respective institutions and thereby about ourselves a bit. We didn't speak as about my adoré as I had anticipated. The friend came off as very similar to my adoré. It became clear how they might be very good friends.

Now in thinking about it, I remember her and I having a small talk about the diversity in our social circles and the pros and cons thereof. Her group is made up of likeminded or relatively like-minded indiviuals. The positive for this in her case is that she has a smaller but tighter circle of friends that she can readily identify with. The negative is that ideological challenges come less often as there is fundamental concensus on thought. Perhaps execution becomes the primary medium for conflicting dialogue. I speak in supposition as I've never had such a circle. My group is made up of people from accross the social and ideological spectrums. The positive there is that I have many opportunities to challenge my ideas and those of others and experience other ways of thinking. The negative has been that while I have a breadth of contacts and associates, those I would consider friends in the sense that she does is much more limited.-
We seemed to disagree a bit on outlook and potential approach though our conversation remained cordial even at points of distance. After thinking about it, I think I challenged a bit more than I ought, considering this was our first meeting. It's the same way I speak to most any of my peers though so....Whatever the best course of action was, I results were a bit surprising. That's to say, they made me think of new things. I received a text later the next day hinting that her friend may not like me. I immediately thought, "Aggghhh, I went too hard. I should have just listened more and kept the topic of discussion lite." I've been told that I can come off a bit intractable. I can see that. We talked later and I learned that it wasn't so much that she disliked me but that she thought that we had different world views. As they have similar world views, my adoré and I must also have different world views that's where she found
a matter of contention our relationship.

I've never really
1. Considered how world views could (un)shape (romantic) relationships. Although now its seems a practical checkpoint. I do regard spiritual accord as a necessary prerequisit to relationship, though.
2. Examined whether she and I had different world views. Upon then asking, she was found to agree with her friend on the matter of our having different world views.
3. Taken a critical look at how this line of reason might determine her thoughts on the lifespan/purpose of our relationship.

Needless to say, I was a bit taken aback. It gave an odd feeling in the gut. Like I'd been blindsided. I'm not the most organized person, but I take a pragmatic approach to relationships. I try to do so even in romantic relationships though I'd found myself making impractical concessions with myself concerning time. Why? Because I wanted to and don't regret a single minute of it. As she attempted to assuage my concern, I think we both knew that the reason in her friend's concern was no chimerical consideration.

And so i think to myself......................................

I want to stay, but can this last from where we are?
I want this to last, but.....................can it? Can I will it to be?....Where/when is that determining discussion?................. = L

3:09 PM


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2:06 PM


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I had a breakthrough in breakthrough in worship today. It was awesome. I'm usually pretty reserved with my physical demonstration of praise. I didn't really know if the whole shouting thing was for me. It always felt/looked so odd. This morning, a friend of mine came to my church with me. It always feels good to show others where I reload. I actually came on time this morning, whereas I'm usually about 15 minutes late which was sort of my way of dodging most of praise and worship. It wasn't that I didn't like it. I just felt so awkward sometimes. I didn't know what to do with my hands. I'm not the greatest singer, so hearing my voice isn't the most attractive incentive. So, I began becoming acustomed to showing up a bit tardy.  = I

Today, I didn't want to show up late with a guest coming. In fact, the night prior I was up pretty late video chatting with the most amazing young woman. Wow, she's special! Anyway, we were up till like 5:something. (Commercial: chatting over webcam is cool but kinda odd. As you talk you want to make eye contact but looking at the camera is the only way to make that appear on their screen. If you do that, you can't see their eyes. = (  . But we made eye contact this one time...dude.) So after we finished this morning, I wasn't sure if I'd be able to wake up so, I set my alarm to like 10:22am as service is 10:45 and only about a 10 min walk away. 5 if I litely jog, which i tend to do - in life. So, I wake up at 9:50am alert. It was the oddest. Even now, as I type, I'm not tired. I make it to church at around 10:40 or so. He's there in the doorway talking to one of the greeters so it seems he's been only been there for a bit. Cool. 

So we talk before service starts. He's a really cool guy. I think God has a strong plan in line for him. We start with a meet/greet strangers then partner & pray.  Praise and worship is usually after that and so we did. I made some progress early. I sang sincerely and clapped and stepped a bit. I was feeling happy. Played a bit with the clap cadence a bit, raised my hand a bit. It was good. Then we started singing, "We worship you because of who You are." It spoke to me as I meditated on the words. Jahova Jira, Jahova Nisi, Jahova Shalom. So the song dies down and Paster Dale comes up and says he felt led to remind us why we raise our hands. If someone were to come up to us with a gun, a response might be to raise our hands as a sign of surrendor. We raise our hands to God with in similar purpose. We signal our submission to his will for us. Also, if you've ever seen a young child wobble or walk up to you as you stand and raise their hands, you are familiar with another reason we do so. We are signaling to our Heavenly Father, "pick me up" "hold me".  

The song started up again and I raised my hands to the heights. I sang despite my off-key vocals. As I meditated further on the words coming out of my mouth I think they detoured and began traveling through my spirit. I felt this small crack inside. It really felt something like a cracked in my spirit. Not soon after that, I noticed I was crying slowly.  Then I felt my face squinch for the tears. I continued to sing further felt the small fisure break through and the next thing I knew, I was shouting "YES!" It was amazing. Amazing! standing straight up was bit difficult for a second but it felt so good giving Him the praise. He is worthy of so much more than my small hands and my small voice. As a friend said, "decrease myself and increase Him." It was powerful! I pray I can continue to give him the praise and glory and honor. 

So, I've been telling others about it, so I wanted to tell you too. I told my roommate about it and he challenged me to look forward to the time when I can do so when life isn't going so well. I look forward to such a strong faith. 

1:35 AM

I don't Know

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If they are the reflection from yesterday's tears

or of those yet to come
But I thought I should tell you
You have stars in your eyes

12:19 AM


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I'm feeling a bit...........smiley kinda

I've been presented with this wonderful person (so far)
and I'm grateful

Also, (Thanks to Kanye) I've found Francis and the Lights. GREAT MUSIC

1:10 AM

Very Good Movie

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